rip. <3

so i thought the fact that'd i've known this was comming for like, over a week now, would make it easier. but it really didn't. nothing could make this easier.

so its strange everything was like going wrong today, and ugh. i've been like expecting this. so anyways, my aunt died today. and i knew, right away when i saw my mom calling that that's what she was gonna tell me.

i feel terrible, i've blown off quite a few chances to go visit her in the past few weeks. but i just couldn't bring myself to do it. last time i saw her, she was so sick and could barely talk and barely remembered me. and then my mom told me she'd gotten worse, and i just couldn't even imagine seeing her like that. and now i feel horrible, and im not happy with myself at all, and im sure a lot of my family isn't happy with me either.

and im gonna write about this more, but idk. not now. im gonna go look for some clothes to wear to a funeral, and cry.

rip aunt penny.
<3